"blogger crush" ALERT!!

Andekhi_Anjaani_Mu...

Is it possible to miss someone or rather someone's thoughts soo much that u actually wait for that person to write his/her next post and tend to get a wee bit upset if it dosent turn up?to miss someone u dont even know nor have ever seen, when that person is not around?
well i am actually going through a kinda similar weird feeling right now yet again convincing myself that im paranormal ..but sure, that has got me wondering...am i thaat crazy?? :p
Sigh! and just when pri thought she was all ready to break loose from the shackles of emotional bonding,(was plannin my next trip to the himalayas--orange garb and all) someone makes her realise that she still is an emotional fool...
Well it so happens, that however naive and gullible ppl say that is, it still hurts me real bad when i have to lose a friend ...and sometimes it hurts from within...
The feelin of a close one going away from u or being angry at u manages not only to break ur heart but also makes life feel soo very futile...but thn lets be practical...afterall its life and nobody said it would be fair!
But thn again we as humans always have and always will expect it to be and when expectations are not met and life dosent seem fair, we will cry, scream at ourselves, break glasses and swear (for the more melodramatic kinds) or resort to all kinda self inflicted torture and turn into ghosts and haunt ppl who we love and cant get over (for the ram gopal verma movie fans who are recently lurving his new crap"darling".ewww...it was a horrendous experience--tht film..and worse still it had esha deol being naturally scary even whn she wasent playin ghost and isha kopikar who cant act real for nuts...the story line was crap, the acting crappier and after "aag" and"darling", RGV should be shot in the head.hmpf!)
Ok jokes apart,if u already thinking that ive finally lost my marbles to digress like that or that ive forgotten all about the so called "blogspot thingy" (though tht wudent be too much of a surprise considerin a person who has the capacity to forget her password ..sigh!),thn dont be dissapointed...il'l stop digressing here and am in a state of perfect mental balance...or err..atleast trying to be ..:p
Well thr was this person *name undisclosed*--for security reasons...security from he calling me mad if he happens to be reading this and also because i dont believe in boosting someone's ego unnecessarily...juss in case he has one of those'overinflating' kinds...and one of the most important reasons why im not disclosing his name is err , because i actually dont know it myself...juss know him by his blog handle :(
ok so this "mr blogger" has apparently managed to create some sorta magic...and all i know about him is that he is a "he"...sigh!
Now if u r imagining his blog to be one of those ultra fancy, lovely blogs with millions of readers gushing in, thn ur sadly mistaken...cos i happened to be the only one visiting him for a long long time (not soo long long actually..cos he apparently has entered the bloggin world juss around a coupla months back or so it seems...unless he is goin by some other handle somewhwre else...and thts keepin him busy....................................................................................................and me's feeling a lil insecure now :( .sigh!i told u im crazy.)
Well it so happened that "mr blogger" happened to stumble upon my blog accidently (im guessing)..and said some pretty interesting things..things wch were mentally stimulating...things wch made me sit a while and ponder on what was being said... and for the first time pri was at a loss for words...something in those one-liners left her thinking and reflecting ..there was nothin extraordinary but there was something---some chemistry wch those one-liners and not-so-one-liners had managed to evoke...
so off i went hopping to his blog...juss like a kid who's spotted a new candy store in town...on reaching there frankly speaking, i was a bit dissapointed...
it was as if the kid in the candy store suddenly discovered tht the candy store was not updated with the goodies she had expected and since it was new, the owner had hardly bothered to bring in stuff yet and there were juss a few candies (oops posts) there...i noticed tht the blog was new and i at once labelled "mr blogger" as juss another "new kid on the block"(err blog) who's enthusiasm would fade out with a post or two...let me mention here tht the posts there were nothing spectacular (nothin like the wonderful things u guys come up with)...infact they were mostly pretty plain one-liners again...but somehow i saw potential...the posts were very different from the kinda comments he posted wch implied tht the blogger was juss too plain lazy to lay out his thoughts in public and would only perhaps express his opinions when he feels he really needs to...hmmm! tht was interesting..lazy at the cost of seeming unopiniated but interesting.(ok ok ! maybe only i see it tht way...hmpf!)
so i went ahead and commented...dint expect any reply though.. cos had guessed the "new enthusiastic kid on the blog" philosophy wud hold true in this case too and this blog would wilt away...but to my utmost surprise, he BLOGGED almost immediately proving me wrong and frm thn on tht made me check his blog almost 3-4 times in a day...
He was happy to find a visitor to read his thoughts and extended a hand of friendship which i readily accepted...
This went on for around 15 days and i really enjoyed it..it was really nice commenting on his blog and getting replied to...now u guys might point out tht theres nothin gr8 in tht and thts juss blogger etiquettes...but remember me--the only person there *blush blush*...so wat-e-ver!! :o
And then all of a sudden a trip planned...me wasent around...got back...and mr blogger had vanished :(...he had not been blogging while i wasent around nor had he replied to the comments i had posted on his blog before leaving for the trip:(...
He is still not blogging...nor has he been visiting :(...poof! vanished from blogdom...without a trace..
worse still there is no means of contact...no email addie.no nothing...not tht i wud *blush blush*...tht would be embaressing and desperate and probably he would end up getting delusional and scare me away.:p BUT where in hell are good ol blogger etiquettes gone now??hmpf!!
atleast a msg.atleast a post dedicated to the readers of his blog.heehee.or atleast a parting note...ok ok--i guess im gettin dramatic now :(.but what really irked me was NO REPLIES to my comments...ohh how i juss HATTEE tht!! especially if u r someone who only me reads, and i know u dont have an enormous fan following and u know i would be coming to check if im being replied to cos i kinda tend to get possesive bout ur blog considerin im the only one frequenting it...hmpf!! (SHADDUP! and stop thinkin im being weird.:x)
So from tht blasphemous day onwards till date there has been no sign of mr blogger :( leaving me with hundreds of questions probably starting with "what is thy name?" ...heehee
sigh! thts life i guess...ppl come, some stay,some go away bidding goodbye with a glorious and happy farewell, while some leave silently without even a parting note leaving u wonderin as to what happened and why they have to leave in sucha hurry...

and then again there are those who leave but never really manage to leave:).
ok thats enough! here i remind myself not to go digressing again...
so coming back to "mr blogger", it was really strange actually...
no names exchanged, no formal or informal introductions , no long hours of yapping (in fact not even short minutes :p)...just some sorta chemistry i seemed to notice through a coupla comments exchanged.u know the "i juss skipped a funny heartbeat" feeling..thats it!lol!!
I know wht u guys must be thinking...tht pri is at her dramatic best unnecessarily hyping up things...others must be thinkin "what crap...she calls that a crush..she dosent even know his name??"...and there must be still a few who would snigger and tell me he could be a 70yrold balding guy with 3 wives...and that it dosent make sense...
well thts wht a crush is supposed to be like neways, isnt it? a passing phase while u learn to grow up and get more real...so. wat-e-ver!!
err.. well ok maybe tht was a bit of a hurried "crush" label..maybe its juss curiosity afterall.but thn i still frequent his blog and leave a comment or two...juss like the kid who inspite of knowing tht the candy store she liked has shut down and might never open again, visits it still in the hope that probably one day she might get to see the friendly face of the candyman again and catch a glimpse of her fav store :) perhaps cos she has gotten used to going there...or perhaps cos she has taken a fancy to tht place... or perhaps juss for the "nostalgia" bit :)
but the kid will get tired someday and someday she will give up...and so will i..and the day is most likely somewhere in the next fortnight.lol!!.infact im almost beginnin to feel tht i was right in tht "new kid on the blog" philosophy..perhaps "mr blogger" dint prove me wrong afterall.(i should really be nominated for the "i know im always right" award)..and considerin i have said so much already, dont think he has really left me speechless too ...lol!!!
Thought i would write on this experience cos found it rather amusing myself and this virtual world has never ceased to amaze me...
it keeps springing surprises at me from time to time till the point i guess whn il'l be no longer surprised, at it and at myself...
P.S: to all my friends who keep trying to get me away from the comp, ive not totally lost it...so stop making faces and stop giving me that "u-r-neglecting-REEEEAL-ppl-who-care-for-u" crap...Because il'l keep questioning u on ur definitions of "RREEAAALL" ..so dont say i dint warn u! :D
whtsay guys?? any similar experiences? had any so called "crushes" on someone u dont know a thing about?perhaps just a conversation,the wonderful thoughts of a fellow blogger, a photograph shared or any other marvel of the net world??

would love to hear ur experiences...go ahead...dont shy away..its life afterall .we all know its a crazy trip anyways :)

cheers!!