huh???

And i was introduced to yet another shade of human nature when a frustrated now 'once upon a time' f-r-i-e-n-d (word split alphabet by alphabet because thts what i would like to do to him now...arggghhh!!)asked me if i was mentally normal because im not "PHYSICALLY ATTRACTED" to him!!!


and no!!...by his irritated tone,i dont think he was joking...hmpf!
A lot other things were said like i should probably be going and spending the rest of my life in a secluded ashram on the himalayas, give "pravachans" on abstinance from all kinda worldly "moh-maya" and even suggesting tht i would have been "swami vivekanand" had i been a boy and born in a diff era...(dont ask me to explain the swami vivekanand bit..even i couldent figure tht out :-/)
He also proceeded further sayin he cant be god (excuse me! whn did i ask him to be?..ahem! i did ask him to stop being a weirdo once though) and whn i asked why we cant be friends, concluded tht i was "god" (tht felt good actually...felt as if i had juss had a dip in the ganga) and should be friends only with other gods...heehee!! whaatta line! :D
can it get any funnier??? :-/
why dont some guys get it that it takes a lot more than juss physical attration to get a girls attention and direct her towards the "more than friendship" zone...
Maybe im unable to relate to his way of thinking...
maybe im juss put off by his overinflated ego...
maybe im juss too irritatesd by his hyperexcitable nature esp at times whn im feelin blue...
maybe im too disgusted by his adamant attitude, his so called drippin sexuality, and perhaps his way of classifying all his feelings as normal and "if u dont agree with me, u r abnormal and need therapy" justification...
maybe his overpossesive nature scares me at times...
maybe his uncaring attitude towards others puts me off...
maybe i refuse to take up hints and try to avoid the topic only because i cant see it the way he sees it right now and im not sure if i would see it tht way anytime in the future (especially if he continues acting like tht)...
and cliched and fairytailish as it may sound,i still do believe in "true love" wch is far far beyond jus physical attraction...and am not convinced tht its found soo easily...so if u juss pop up frm somewhr with a "im ur trueee lurrvvee" board, dont expect me to believe u...:-/
but NO!! he juss wont consider all that...and go right ahead and label me "mentally abnormal" for being able to resist his "oh-so-irrestable" charms. :-/
and to think i was feeling guilty all this while for my behaviour towards him and attempted apologising quite a number of times but never really got the chance to until today...and after the irritating conversation we had, i thought i really needent have done that and tht it was better off when we werent speaking.lol!! I hung up feeling less guiltier and a lil more weirder for having called him around a dozen times earlier to explain...
Tried callin him up again but mr weirdo who apparently was feeling all satisfied and good about himself tht miss-mentally-abnormal was calling him up because maybe she was convinced and wanted him to pay her shrink's fees for the 100th unsuccessfull therapy session, dint want to break his illusion and so kept disconnecting every time...but thinkin of it now, in a way good he dint answer the call because i had a lotta things to say, a lotta explanations to give why i couldent consider it any more than a friendship.blah blah...the waste of energy which probably i would have regretted later...thinking tht it was juss around 10 mins and i was already glad for not having put up with his crap...
I mean i agree u might be normal and according to u im not for not sharing the same feelings with u...but did u know having a vivid imagination and imagining things wch dont really exist about ppl who sometimes dont have the slightest clue tht u r imagining thm (until u tell thm tht u r), is called "erotomania" and tht is a psychiatric disorder...so please can i suggest u an appointment now?? :-/
Well after this post, one things for sure i dont think he would ever want to speak or imagine me again...lol!!
I admit it was pretty stupid of me to call back several times in the past few days (to apologise for my rude behaviour) juss to save the friendship...
but whoaa,thinkin bout todays conversation with a patient and relaxed mind, it did surprise me with a lotta revelations wch are kinda too freaky to handle :)... and i dont like scaring myself time n time again...besides i dont think i have the patience to call a person who dosent want to hear me out so tht he can keep believing what he wants to believe...so there!!
The only regret in all this is he probably dint let me explain certain things i wanted him to know...but then i guess i tried...but one things for sure,explanations accepted or not, im definitely not comfortable with what he said today and probably imagines everyday without my consent ofcourse...period!!
This impressive (being sarcastic juss in case u dint get it) conversation got me wondering how shallow-minded guys can get at times and also how "imaginative" wch the dude again justified as perfectly normal and said tht he was being totally honest in confiding in me about it...huh???
He also said tht there r definitely other guys out there who do pretty much the same thing juss tht he got about telling me and tht made all the difference...I mean wht the hell...is this guy telling me tht there r more ppl like him.."well atleast they dont freak me out with details of their imagination...besides ive got many good friends who are guys and they happen to be not 1/zillionth as crappy as you"...he juss smirked to tht wch enraged me all the more...
I retalliated with something about respect and my friends not being idle and me not having ever met a guy who thought of things in such a disrespectful (read as "sick") way ...and he surprised me by a big long speech on "respect" clinging onto every damn alphabet of the word and how he thinks tht it is the most important thing and he wouldent ever feel the same way if he dint respect me...ohh and yess forgot to mention history says he did "respect" a few other women in the past too who probably even fell for his "respect" story and maybe even stepped out of his imagination and hopped into reality transforming one into another...
But helllooo!! i dont think i can ever do that and would appreciate if he managed to get me out of his imagination as well (and thn forget all about me as a favour)as im not very comfortable there...
A few hours of afterthought also got me giving up on the friendship big time!!
From now on, every time i feel guilty for being rude (though the conversation was creepy enough to eliminate all pangs of guilt from emerging),il'l juss read this post and guess that would do more than enough to disgust me off him. :-/

sigh! it is only because of such hyper egoistic specimens that the entire "male" species gets misunderstood...