juss some updates--for the record...

Life continues to play games leaving me with a lot of things on my mind lately...
Its kinda weird to know someone who was always around is not around anymore and worse still is bugged with u and juss wont try to understand...
I know ive been stupid...extremely stubborn at times and adamant and strong headed for maybe a lotta wrong reasons...but i guess i stretched it a bit too far this time...
The confidence tht nobody can stay angry at me for long has been brutally proved wrong as i leave yet another message on the answerin machine...
somehow i know this time too it will go unattended...

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some other issues creeping up now and thn has led me retalliating a bit too often these days...
i do realise ive got to be more patient when it comes to these...but believe me, when it comes to some ppl, patience is really a virtue...they juss keep nagging u exactly on the things u dont want to be nagged about...sigh!

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Realisations have always come a bit too late as far as im concerned...but whn i eventually do realise, theres no turning back...
Its crazy but i have realised many a things in the past at the least expected of times and places...im casually walking down the stairs of the CCD with a friend while she is speaking about her dog being ill and needs to be taken to the vet and BAM!!!out of the blues i realise something wch wasent even on my mind then...
im watchin my fav tv soap and everyone around me are wondering who the serial killer who is goin on a killing spree for the past 150 episodes could be and in the middle of nowhere VOILA!! another realisation...sigh! thts how it usually goes...
dont ask me how...i dunno myself...im juss like that :-/
So it was just another boring day and i was busy doing nothing in particular whn my mom called me to help around the kitchen...and amidst all tht chopping of vegetables and the whistle of the pressure cooker, it happened yet again!
I realised something...something very important...something wch has long been creating havoc in my life..realised was and am being fooled and fooling myself for way too long and this has to stop somewhere...somehow!
and tht also made me realise tht im strong enough to see "the game once played" very cleary now...but it just dosent matter anymore..and yess there is no "probably" this time..:)

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Amidst all the realisations and reflections, my career plans are finally seeming to fall in place...2 months of holidays was more than enough and i cant carry on with this "lukhagiri" any longer...
So got about giving my first interview a few days back and the good news is i got the job...yeppers!! :D...so dr pri will be joining the hospital in a few weeks time...yaa probably will miss the bindaas holiday spirit im now enjoying...but thn again "all play and no work makes jill a lazzyy girl" isnt it?

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I juss heard from a good friend that one of our common friends attempted suicide...and to think we always thought he was a very happy person...
Tht made me believe juss a lil more in bollywood storylines...i dont know if i should go to see him or not...
even if i do, i dunno what to say to him...

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A close pal of mine has given up on the "love of her life" juss because her parents are not agreeing to their marriage because their family astrologer told them that their "kundalis" dont match...
i dont know what to say to her too...

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theres a new mall opened up and they couldent have chosen a worse time...i juss did a whole lotta shopping the past few weeks and my dad's goin to hit the roof even if i mention the "m" of "mall" now...sigh!

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someone i always have been considering a very good friend has got his priorities sorted...and im happy for him...
something i had quite expected to happen finally happened.so im not surprised...sometimes expecting the worst to happen helps if and when it eventually does...makes u feel kinda prepared for it.

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while some things are falling into place , some things in my life continue to fall out of place...but i know i'll have to learn to handle them...

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Seems like life is busy planning surprises (like it always has)...and i bet its feeling happy everytime it leaves me speechless...
still learning to deal with them...
The worst ones though are when it makes me surprise myself most!!!

Neverthless, as the song says...


cheers!!! :)