ek doctor ki kahani...

its frustrating sometimes---a doctors life...
at the end of the day,it is never the lives saved which matter but only the unsuccessful attempts that come to haunt u!!

nobody ever seems to ask the doctor how she is feeling
or rather on second thoughts, does she feel at all!!..thats the attitude isnt it??

ive heard people calling doctors insensitive...emotionless...uncaring...
while some prefer stating it straight and blunt, some prefer to taunt subtly by saying something like 'doctors are strong ppl.undeterred..unaffected by anything'...and its not always meant in a compliment kinda way...

well ,all i gotta say is just because we dont cry and weep dosent mean we dont hurt or it dosent matter...
just because we had to learn to dissect human cadavers in first yr of med school, dosent mean we treat our patients as one...
it might seem mechanical our approach sometimes..but that dosent mean we dont care...
the best of surgeons might seem mechanical to u only because they are trying to save another life in the next 5 mins...
if we dont give ur 'headache' too much time, its probably because we are disturbed over another patients 'tumour'...
if we sometimes appear preoccupied, it dosent mean we are insensitive but it may be because we have a life too and no matter how much we try to keep the two off each other,there are times when our personal lives do interfere with our professional life...
we too have emotions...
we too get upset when something goes wrong with some patient...
just that we prefer not to show it...how would u like ur doctor sobbing out for some other patient while dealing with u??
and then we are supposed to be dealing with the truth right? but how many patients actually want to hear it??

its not an easy job...to detach urself from one case history to another...
sometimes its scary..sometimes u feel like the messenger of impending doom...
yes its great to see a patient recovering and leaving for home...but it also feels equally miserable to see a patient who's admitted going home the wrong way...
and amidst all this it gets pretty unnerving and difficult to put up a balanced act all the time...

and yet some ppl complain...i mean hell!!just because one stupid miserable wretch of a doctor refused to admit some seriously ill relative without letting him sign some admission papers or just because one money oriented bastard instead of choosing engg (no offence to the profession)opted for medicine and vented out his frustration later by getting involved in kidney scams or some organ transplant scandal and playing with life, u give the entire medical profession a bad name???
why this stereotype???
isnt it stupid to be soo biased?

'benefit of doubt' is all a doctor can ask for sometimes...
is that asking for too much??

p.s: i understand many think differently and regard the medical profession very highly and with due respect...
but this post was triggered off by something someone said...
sorry for rattling off maybe just too much...