random thoughts....

Was thinking about emotions today--how they justify themselves and keep taking over all logic from time to time..
infact was thinking about reality too---how it keeps making an appearance time and again but waits only for the end to impart its strongest blow...
and then my thoughts proceeded to US--you, me..humans who keep ignoring reality and continue to succumb to emotions knowing that they have the capacity to engulf us someday if we allow them to gain control...

thinking along these tangents brought me to a conclusion that it is perhaps only when you allow yourself to drown completely and totally in any emotion, that you get blessed with the potential to realise what it really means to you and what you really mean to it!!

and then again, emotions are like those winged birds which only become more beautiful and happy when allowed to fly freely..you cant clip their wings in the fear of losing them...neither can you cage them to keep them safe..they'll only end up feeling claustrophobic.
they are supposed to be set free..
if they return to you unguided and unchanged--thats when you know they are there to stay!
Being able to let go of your feelings is a true blessing and blessed is the soul who succeeds at letting go of his emotions because it is only after one has given his 100% to them, that he is able to do so, having being lucky enough to have experienced them totally and completely..
until that time you ignore this blessing and keep holding on to your emotions even though you know they can turn strong enough to blur out your reality..
being human, you tend to get selfish..
most of the times you realise, and yet you dont want to realise...
you tend to go in denial and keep believing only what you want to believe...
that is precisely when the boon of realisation becomes the bane of insecurity..


and eventually one fine day, a small subtle realisation comes knocking at your doorstep and that familiar stranger called reality peeks in yet again..
frightened, you shut the doors and windows tight so that it does not enter..but it keeps knocking untill you can no longer bear the deafening sound which has suddenly grown loud enough to threaten your very existence...

"why the hell have u come here??" you scream as u fling the door open..
"to help u deal with the truth" comes the stone cold reply..

flustered with rage at that response, you ask "ya right!! and where were you all this while?"

maintaining the calm it always had, reality answers---
"i was always there--making my presence felt from time to time..it was YOU who kept ignoring me!!"