May 11, 2010

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i came across this rather accidently while surfing the net...

"This is for the broken hearted.
I know how you feel. Empty, betrayed, and no happiness whatsoever. You don't want to laugh, because you know it's not going to help, but you don't want to cry, because it will just make you feel worse. You feel like your heart is falling apart, but not only that, but you know soon your life is going to feel like it's falling apart too.
You don't think it will ever end, and no matter what this person has done to you, it feels impossible to stop loving them. And everyone wonders why if they have hurt you so much, then why do you still love them. That's the confusing part, you don't know why, you just do, and the people who hurt you the most, and normally the ones you love the most.
And then, after a few weeks, you finally feel a sense of relief, like you're getting happy again, but you know inside that you're just going into denial. And after a few more weeks, you're back to where you were an empty soul and teary eyes.
You thought you got over them, but really, you just stopped showing it. And you can't help but to show it again. It leaves deep scars on your heart that are there forever. And no one understands how you feel, and how deep you are hurt, no matter who they are, because it hasn't happened to them And even if it has, every broken heart is different.
They don't know the true pain you feel and carry each and everyday now, so you learn that basically you are alone with all this. And the feeling starts to overwhelm you, and suddenly you just break down, right there, because you know you've had enough, the tears just instantly start flowing, and you're to the point where you don't care who see's. Because you've spent so many nights lying awake in bed, and so many days being haunted by the scars and fear of rejection.
And in the midst of all these tears, you know that its not helping anyone, and it's not going to bring them back, if you ever even had them in the first place. After about a million tears have been cried, you finally pull yourself back together and keep going. Your throat starts to clench and your eyes burn with the tears you are trying to hold back. Everyone says, "It will be okay…” But you know it won't.
And that’s the truth, it won’t.
And you look back on all of the hurt you had from this, and you realize that people are horrible. You're still hurt, but you've learned to hide it so that everyone thinks you are okay.
So now every time you see this person, you know you still love them, and you feel a slight tingle in your heart yearning for them to love you, screaming out, but for some reason they don't hear it.

And then you sit back and wonder how one person could have caused all of this..."



..and that really makes me wonder if it is really better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all...

14 comments:

Dr. Chandana Shekar said...

yup. sometime u give the power to destroy u to somebody,thinkin that that person loves u too much to do that. but that person ends up destroyin u

u n i are sailin in the same boat

hope everythin turns well

rahul said...

its difficult 2 tell wch is better :(
but whteva happns happens for the best

paramveer said...

confused!!!!

A Loner said...

And this is so true. A broken hearted person is able to relate every written line in this article to his/her experience. Rightly said, nobody , whom so ever it may be can understand this plight, only a broken hearted person can understand, feel and write this.

TheUncanny said...

Some of us meant to suffer, Some of us are made to believe.And suddenly it all gets snatched away for no reason whatsoever.,The pain is real, people never die of heart breaks but u jus wish u did..tats wat makes it too bloody hard..But we have to nurse the pain and stay alive to see how the story ends.Their part in your story is done with and they left but the story plays on...as with life..

IncorrigibleV said...

i dunno which is better...i think both result in pain, a different kind but still pain!

Lucifer said...

tired...so bloody damn tired!!!

Sapna said...

I believe 'Everything happens for the best and with a purpose'; 'Time has a mysterious kindness, it gives back what is lost' ; 'If you don't get something - it's either bcoz you don't need it or don't deserve it or someone else has worked hard for it in this life !

RamNarayanS said...

You are an interesting personality. :-)

A flicker here, a rage there
Weak some day, hard-headed in another
Fears and Tears, rivers of them
Bounded by 'love' for someone somewhere summed

Pri said...

@ dr chandana
i hope so too..because from the looks of it, my boat is sailing without an anchor :)

@ rahul
yea..what would we do without the art of self-consolation innit?

@ paramveer
confused about what??
if you cant relate to what the quote says then consider yourself lucky! :)

Pri said...

@ a loner
i totally agree..whoever wrote this, has really nailed it down big time!

@ the uncanny
hmm...that is one way of looking at it...but are we really that strong enough to wait to see how the story ends when we are no longer a part of it??

Pri said...

@ vandita
hmmmm...

@ mayz
trust me, we all are!
and yet life goes on...

@ khushi
a smile says so much eh??

Pri said...

@ sapna
///'Time has a mysterious kindness, it gives back what is lost' ; 'If you don't get something - it's either bcoz you don't need it or don't deserve it or someone else has worked hard for it in this life !///
i dont know how far this is true..but it sure seems the safest thing to believe in---kinda like, whatever happens, whether you win or lose it happens for a reason..the BIG reason you might never figure out..but its THERE!

but the stupid part is, self consolation without evidence doesnt last long does it?
i mean once it wears off, we are often right back where we started!

@ ramMmm
its called MPD!(multiple personality disorder) ;)

MangoMan said...

if all the next posts of yours are like this, I'm gonna lick this blog off today itself!

its the mecca of self pity!